Now I lay awake at night envisioning various things that could go wrong. Its very isolating so I too, search on the internet for someone who shares in this pain. Fear has a crazy way of wanting to keep us crazy but if we have fun, lighten up, see the good in everything and everyone, forgive, open our hearts and minds, fear and all that anxiety and depression and excess weight and negative people, will fall away and life will blossom. Little did I know what kind of stress she was going through. I was very heartbroken and sad. I am so relieved to have found this article. I had to google some things this morning because I feel as though I am going mad- then I found this post and I actually cried reading it. I am currently on medication for depression, I don’t know what else Doctors can do for me. Please just keep them safe.”. Postpartum Anxiety. They’ve actually gotten worse. If my eldest gets a bruise, says his stomach or back hurt, has diarrhea, etc. Follow Postpartum Progress's board Postpartum Depression Hope on Pinterest. Understanding the role that your fear of this monster plays in his strength (or understanding the role that thoughts play in postpartum anxiety): Anxiety, like monsters, loves when you are afraid. I dont go to sleep if i dont br sure if she breaths.I have sleeping disorder i dont sleep before 3 oclock. Know what I mean? Postpartum generalized anxiety is an irrational fear or exaggerated worry that something is wrong and usually involves worrying all day, everyday, and about many different things… It’s like I just read a mini book of myself and found out exactly what is wrong with me,just scared to ask for help and probably just continue dealing with it like I have. Here is a list of providers by area. Within the last few months I’ve lost two of my animals and now I have severe anxiety over my other animals dying. We are not medical professionals here. I can look at newborn pictures and just cry for a good hour. I’M NOW HUGELY REGRETTING NOT HAVING CHILDREN BUT CAN ONLY BE IMAGINE HOW I WOULD BE. But every day I have to use the tools I’ve learned in counseling to keep from sinking. I just hate that nobody understands where I am coming from when I say all of this. I was not like this before. That’s okay, we all need help sometimes. If you find yourself counting each breath your baby takes while she’s sleeping, foregoing sleep yourself to stand guard over this precious new bundle, terrified that she’ll die in her sleep without cause, locked into constant worry that overwhelms you, you may have developed an anxiety disorder called postpartum anxiety disorder (PPA). I have had (what I guess you could call) controllable anxiety all of my life. We must sob, grieve, etc. It’s to the point to where I hate letting him be babysat by anyone. Maybe because she’s my firs born. Lately just a bit stressed with graduating and such but I’m an average girl really I don’t normally have health issues or anything either. Some counseling would be so good for you, mama. Or, please see your regular doctor or therapist and talk about your symptoms, if that’s an option for you. Thoughts like these are typical of anxiety. It’s not taking over my life and I’m hoping it’s just because I’m pregnant and my hormones are going crazy but it is something that has crossed my mind since my first son was born. i must sound stupid but i just can’t face it, just the mere though ruins me. Cesarean Birth: Birth of a fetus from the uterus through an incision (cut) made in the woman’s abdomen. As a male, I cannot fully understand PPD and the issues surrounding pregnancy and seperation. I live every second in paralyzing fear that my daughter will be taken from me. But you simply can’t stop living your life, disciplining your kids, addressing issues with your spouse etc just because of the fear of losing them. I fainted. I have the same fears of saying I love you, and it brings out the OCD patterns that I have, same as the door and light switch. The doc recommended a course of counselling and short term use of anti-depressants. It has especially been happening with my boyfriend, of almost a year now, lately. This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. I’m a nervous wreck. Let him or her know you have been having anxiety attacks and are concerned you have postpartum anxiety and that it’s now affecting your ability to eat. If my mother gets sicks from even a minor ailment, I panic that the worse will happen. TROUBLE IS I’M 49 NOW & THIS WORRY HAS CRIPPLED ME SINCE. i started noticing my postpartum as soon as I got home from the hospital with my baby, I could not stop crying, I would cry and cry because I thought for some odd reason he was going to die. Sometimes this obsessive thinking and re-checking the doors, etc., is caused by anxiety that turns to obsessive compulsive disorder. Its constant and I don’t know how t change my thoughts back to positive. You are right that depression and anxiety feel very scary, but please know you are not alone and there is treatment for both if you have either. I keep praying but i I think I may need medication or essential oils. I get so scared and all most can’t breath. I never felt like this before having a child! I do know that my fear of mortality has been with me since I was a teenager. Im below 15 but above 12 years old and my mom is about 54. I just came across this post also. Symptoms would be the fear, nausea, dizziness, lack of sleep, frequency of urination and tension features. I find therapy can be very helpful for anxiety as well. Lots of people have anxiety and it is something that is totally treatable. I had a lump under my arm and it is a fat tissue (lipoma) but I can’t stop playing with my armpit. The primary symptoms of postpartum anxiety are intense worries, fears and anxiousness that severely disrupt daily life. Almost every time I go to the bathroom, mid-way through, I gain extreme panic that I'm "going" only I'm not on the toilet. Because it has been over a year and a half since I was diagnosed you start to question if it is "PPD" anymore. And then there is always good feedback and advice in how to accept life on its terms. I feel like am always on my kids case thinking when there out something going to happen to them always telling them I love them just in case I don’t see them again . Not gang related or anything and she reminded me much of myself and she would be the last person to think it would happen to. In unconcious way i make myself a very happy person with a perfect life but in reality i am anxious. I DON’T SLEEP WELL AND LISTEN TO MY HUBBY BREATHING AND IF I CAN’T, THEN I CHECK HE’S OK. I don’t know what I have… I mean, In one sense I’m not afraid of death itself by any means, more so what I’m leaving behind. Anxiety scores were almost 50% higher in those who suffered from postpartum PTSD compared to those who experienced postpartum depression. i guess it just sort of sneaked upon me but it gets very scary and all i wana do is live a happy life i once had without having to worry every five seconds. I wish that didn’t happen, but it does. I think about death every single day and have so much anxiety about the worse case scenarios that will probably never happen and it’s always just about her. Each time, they are okay. I just had my first baby girl 7 months ago. Every time we’d drive on the freeway, I would lock the car doors because I had a recurring waking nightmare about a door malfunctioning and me or one of my family members being sucked out of the car, kind of like in the movies when an airplane door is opened mid-flight. I have always struggled with a bit of anxiety but it really reached a fever pitch in November of 2013. Thank you, I just turned 16 the other day, but I’ve always constantly thought about this, I just lay in my bed and think about what if one of my parents or grandparents anyone close to me died, I go through each person and cry for hours when I’m alone. Oh I’m sorry. So what is it that’s wrong with me? I know everyone at some point in their lives have experienced somthing that is other worldly, whether it’s a déjà vu, yes a déjà vu! Even if we’re not okay for a while. I’m sorry I didn’t answer before, but I didn’t realize the post was still getting comments. This is so freashing to know I’m not alone. When she is flying, I check flightrader 24 like every 5 minutes, lose sleep , check flight status to see where she is. I have found Ayurvedic supplements and several vitamins and minerals that help, but I still struggle at times. Anyone would. I feel guilty about having my daughter because someday she will have to go through losing me. When I had children of my own, I continue to fear something bad happening to them. Thank you for putting that out there! But then I got diagnosed with the most common STI. My son is 2 now and I NEVER had this with my other 2 boys. I lost my great-grandmother when I was 10 and I was really close to her. Therapy would be a great place to start addressing these fears and learning how to eventually overcome them. I am actively seeking therapy and am hoping it will help. About my son dying or my husband dying or myself dying and what my little boy would do if his mommy died. I hope you reach out. The only bad thing is that it made me put on a bunch of weight. Laurie Anne, my heart breaks for you. I noticed the fear when I was a child, probably around 10 or so years old. I’m frozen, I don’t have a body, just me and the ugly black thought. My husband and I have maybe two date nights a year because the anxiety of leaving my little boy behind is so overwhelming that Ivan barely enjoy the date. I am terrified of losing them. I work from home, which give some satisfaction (as least I haven’t spent 11 years among different universities for nothing!) Postpartum anxiety is characterized as excessive, uncontrollable, and irrational anxiety in the months after giving birth. I always check the door if it’s locked. My heart start to beat faster and i wasnt breathing normally i feel that i wasnt getting enough air and after some minutes i find myself laying in my bad. You’ve been through a lot and it makes sense that you would struggle like this. I’m in the middle of this and cannot stop crying uncontrollably and thinking about it. This is great advice. This is not the case when my relatives/brother travel. I know that’s not reality. I never told anyone. or stealing my glasses! I also forgot to add, that while pregnant with my first child in 2005, I began to fear death near the end of my pregnancy. I wasn’t even going to look at PPD, I was googling “depression fear of death” and one of the suggestions that popped up was this url for PPD and fear of death… bingo! Yes I have endured many losses and most of the anxiety comes from a very good friend whome has a baby only 6 weeks apart from mine, got murdered by a friend at her house in March. I am also in the situation where I can comfortably provide for my little girl. I know this post is many years old but I just came across it. PLEASE consider becoming a child of God so you dear, precious folks will have at least some hope of permanent hope. I hate to hear about others that are still suffering but it makes me feel that I am not alone and that I am not some freak that was not able to heal from PPD. There's almost nothing worse than not being able to live a full life because you're afraid to lose the ones you love. I do like the comment from Jessica Steely Smith, about our the nine aspects. & no one, not even the closest person in my life knows I have these thoughts but me.. Mikeala, I’m so sorry your struggling with this. And talking to your husband can be hard, but it’s good to be honest about what is troubling you. I am having an identical experience. Keep trying new things and see if they help…don’t give up. This progressed to me being convinced I was ill and dying I used to be paralysed by panic wondering what my son would do without me. No one should have to suffer that kind of crippling anxiety. I want to be a good mother and wife and daughter but feel this fear and sadness and guilt is just consuming me. I have been relentless…after U of Minnesota and Mayo gave no hope we landed at MD Anderson in Houston and found hope. There’s no reason for you to believe it’s hopeless or be at the point where you feel sick constantly – you don’t have to live like that. It would be good to talk with a therapist, maybe one that knows about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. This was enough to trigger a fear of something happening to myself or my family. It affects the poor, the rich, the young, the old, the sick, the healthy, and more. My dad only stays fit a short period if fine because he has a hard time with the weather and altitude in CO and they live in CA. Penelope, yes, please consider some therapy. I don’t mind taking him places out exploring and to relatives houses, I just can’t stand to leave him there. My husband’s wrinkles, my “babies” moving out of the house, going to college, dating, when did all of this happened? Middle of the night panic attacks, non stop crying, horrible feelings of real fear like I was already experiencing the horror of death somehow. I am so sad to see that so many of you feel this way, yet I appreciate everyone who has shared as it truly brings comfort to know I’m not alone. I remember when i was a child i have periods of time i behave just like now but it was only a month or two and everything disapper but nowdays it has became part of my day, it has became part of me. Shall I seek for professional help? Now I don’t have these fears! I'm 19 months postpartum. Then when I was trying to get close to people they would leave me. We lost our mother at age 9 and are extremely connected for 60 years! As I said, I am a person of faith and I believe God would give my family or myself strength in tragedy, but it is hard to fight the thoughts and feelings all the time. Please speak to someone you trust if you feel like this is making life hard for you. Now is the time for me to seek professional help. Almost 2 years later? Please talk to someone you trust or show them this comment. He’s the most amazing person I have ever met and I am so afraid that one day he’s just going to just leave me and I don’t know what I can do about it. My hope is that each story brings awareness to those suffering that there is help. ThiS is me. Reading things that truly happen to people like their babies passing or someone being murdered has made this a billion times worse. It made me feel much better and had me thinking of a few things I want to share. When the thoughts arise squash them , and just say no. Especially if these fears get to the point where it feels like they’re taking over your life, occupying your mind too often or preventing you from doing things you would otherwise enjoy. But then I think of how getting old isn’t a promise to everyone and that freaks me out rather than motivate me to live a full quality life. It keeps me up at night and I just bawl my eyes out. When anxiety disorders are born from all this change in our lives,  it isn’t a sign of illness,  it’s simply a sign of a tired, concerned brain that is looking out for you. Postpartum generalized anxiety affects just about as many new moms as postpartum depression does — and can be just as debilitating — but the condition isn't talked about as much. Also i was dieting and severely exercising since 3months before all this started and had my postgraduate exams within a month of beginning of these episodes. I know it’s so intense, and so scary. Family Photo and Headshot: Everyday Inspiration Photography, Amy Davis. I am considering going to a counselor. I can’t stop thinking I’m going to die and leave my 3 little kiddos. And, we don’t our nine Foes will come. I just can’t imagine me not being here for my 3 littles. (My husband is a truck driver and the odds of him being here when it happens are slim) I also imagined not being able to get to one, or both, and hearing them die in pain. Does that make sense? I’m going through the EXACT thing. I am always tired, go bed tired, wake up tired. I just googled “the fear of your loved ones dying” and found this which sounded very similar to how I feel. Sleep was a huge issue with my girl but now that she’s 4.5 months young, it’s getting better and easier and a lot more fun. Some mothers live in constant fear that they will bring about serious harm to their baby, or even death. But I don’t know what could have triggered it, I have not experienced any deaths close to me in my life. You may have to register before you can post: click the register link above to proceed. Sounds so insane retrospect. My 21 yr old son is moving away in a June for work. Then I started crying a lot just looking at my kids and feeling as if they were growing up too fast for my liking. Of course, you start having symptoms from that adrenaline which include hyperawareness of your thoughts and heightened fears and all the other fun things that go along with anxiety. Only, it's just hitting me harder right now. It’s like you have given words to my thoughts. I wrote the original post, and yes, I did find help for the intrusive thoughts I was having. When I do this I am able to relax. Even a low dose of something that is safe for breastfeeding may really help. Your email address will not be published. Your email address will not be published. Every time I ride a bus or train I always think it will explode. You know, there is actually a fair amount of scientific evidence that supports the possibility of an afterlife. Some anxiety problems actually create the fear of death on their own. Xo. It’s so bad that I have literally become so obsessed that my night time prayers are more of a routine now where if I don’t pray for my children that God will take them away from me. I feel it’s much worse. You are definitely not alone. Who would dress my body? But we must allow our body to do what it is made to do and not push away the feelings. The thing about anxiety is that it … Remember: Kids take their cues from their parents. Your brain WILL get the message if you stay consistent. I’m going through the same thing right now. ever since my two friends passed away all that comes to my head is death thoughts or am i next . You should not have to worry like this. I knew this wasn’t normal behaviour I a very rational person usually – eventually I went to the doctor and completely broke down in the surgery. It was my first time away from home alone. You can ask your GP for a referral to a counselor/therapist. Tc, some good therapy would be so helpful for you. I felt like the worst mother in the universe. I just want opinions really. I hope there is more research out there discussing this specific symptom of PPD, and if there is I’m going to find it. I am okay. I feel like me and his father are the only ones that can keep him safe. Not only did I not forgive my dad and hated the dog, I then gave up on praying so intently because I knew my prayers would not come true. It is your mind working over-time on your fears. It gets easier. Almost every night I’m always the last one to sleep and I check my family in their rooms and check if they’re still breathing. I'm paranoid that my co-workers know I have PPD and they think I'm just a crazy mother wanting to be home with her baby (even though they don't know I have it). Postpartum anxiety isn’t normal. There is help for this aside from medications. I also chech electric housholds in case of fire. I fell down the stairs when he was 8 months old and my parents flew out fir a couple of weeks to help my husband with the baby so that he could help me. Its so so so terribly sad.i hope med helps because i have no other hope. i too experience this . I have been to a therapist but I don’t think she got it or was equipped to help. I just seem to be walking around with this feeling of doom hanging over my head. I just googled this to normalize my own experience and I’m very glad I found you. So it puts you in protective mode, and makes you hyper-vigilant in both your thoughts and your actions. Melissa Weinberg, LCPC, is a psychotherapist in private practice who specializes in the treatment of anxiety and OCD, especially during pregnancy and in the postpartum period. I had a miscarriage 13 years ago and then delivered a healthy baby a year later. In addition, the patient is also suffering from extreme restlessness and it makes the patient do everything with haste. I have the constant fear that she will die soon and i cant get the moment of where in the movie forrest gump sits by his dying mother and i cant get out of my mind that that will happen to me. I’m sending you peace. Homeopathic remedy Aconitum Napellus is one of the top homeopathic remedies for depression and anxiety in postpartum depression women who also have a fear of death. I cant sleep at night, during the day I will be fine one minute and than the next a thought of something happening to one of my children or my husband or my parents or my grandparents or or or… pops into my head and I cant get it out. I have feelings of guilt for moving away and not letting them enjoy thier one and only grandson. I’m not sure when this will go away. I am in my mid twenties, with a new baby, currently dealing with some pretty bad anxiety and a phobia of death of myself or loved ones. That isn’t your fault, it sometimes just happens to a brain. Ever since I can’t sleep without my LO next to me. Postpartum Anxiety. Here is our list of specialists by area. When I typed “I run through scenarios of my kids dying in my head” I didn’t expect to actually find anything, so thank you for sharing your experiences. I have been going through the same thing, I am pregnant, and I have never had this scare or fear about death until I got pregnant, it scares me really bad when I hear about a death happening it scares me I cry, cause I don’t want anything to happen to me, specially at a young age, I worry myself way to mich, I am healthy and no I’m okay, I also pray evetynsknglye night with my husband because it scares me, is it normal? But please know it’s not your fault – it’s just an illness that you can get help for and those thoughts will start to affect you less and less. It completely describes mu feelings. Hi Isha, I’m sorry it’s taken almost a year to respond–I didn’t realize this post was still getting comments. I know how you feel and I hope you get some help. These episodes are called panic attacks. I totally get this.. Every word. The body weighs approximately 21 grams less when we die, even accounting for gas escaping etc, doesn’t cover that amount of loss – I truly believe it is the soul, or whatever you want to call it. Congratulations on the new baby and best wishes to you and your family. All the best to you…. Thank you (: -Also, I’m not a generally depressed person. WHEN I WAS 16 AND MY PARENTS WENT ON HOLIDAY WITH FRIENDS I REMEMBER PUTTING SCISSORS IN THE CAR JUST IN CASE THEY WERE IN A CAR ACCIDENT AND COULD NOT GET OUT THEN THEY COULD CUT THEM SELVES OUT!!! Its rediculous and I cant live my life with this constant fear because it is taking over every aspect of my life. Please talk to your doctor or your baby’s pediatrician about what you are going through. ~ Katherine. I feel like I love them so much that there’s so much to lose. Thank you for writing this. No meds or therapy has helped. Will I EVER SEE MY LOVED ONES AGAIN??? This morning I cried for an hour after reading the blog of a woman whose son killed himself six months ago. Hi. I was diagnosed with pp anxiety four years ago. I have the same fears you all mention. I have had anxiety since middle school, I had my first panic attack in 8th grade and they would come and go throughout the years. Stress 4. It makes me feel better knowing I am not alone. You don’t have to continue to experience these constant worries and scary feelings. I didn’t understand what it might mean to lose someone; I didn’t experience a death in my family until I was 24 years old. Hello Kelly, thank you for reaching out. I know it’s hard but don’t let your Brian mess with you! Even now, though a great deal of my postpartum anxiety symptoms have abated, the fear of death and dying remains. … I have constant thoughts that someone I love is going to die. If you start to obsess over it and it is effecting your life overall, it might be good to talk with a doctor or counselor to work through it. While sat in bed crying that my hubby would have an accident or something happen to my daughter, then thinking to myself, oh my days I’ve gone crazy again!!!! You have an intense love for the people in your life and it consumes you sometimes. I’m my own worst enemy when it comes to these thoughts and was too scared to share them with others in fear of being told that I was crazy lol. They all showed that I could develope anxiety soon or that my anxiety levels are above average. What I am experiencing is a bit different – my daughter is three months old and recently have become depressingly fixated on death and mortality. For real. Best Homeopathic Treatment for Anxiety during Postpartum Depression. I am currently in counseling and group therapy…but for now, this post and these comments are bringing me comfort. 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